I am 19 year old, how to not stop thinking about ,,masturbation all the time. please i beg you to help.?

i AM AN INDIAN GIRL AND have been masturbating{striking,rubbing my oris vigrously}since i was 10years old.almost daily so it is 365*9 days of rubbing my ..everytime everyday i decide to stop,take oaths but i always end up having my hands in my panty doing it.THINKING ABOUT SEX.i clearly remember how it started.When my mother used to give me baths she used to say that u should clean that area properly{inside my vulva near the oris}and when she use to do it i feel tinklish,she used to do it with her finger sometimes with cotton.as i used to feel tinklish i used to do it when i am in bed even at the age of10years.MY PARENTS ARE THEMSELVES SO MUCH INTO SEX AND I AM NOT REALLY LIEING,as i have proofs.i really y don't they ever understand that children have their brain atleast at the age of 13.i clearly remember my father mothers right infront of me,my mother moaning,yelling.moving her legs close and apart to get excited right infront of me.AND DUE TO IT from 13years of age i used to masturbate immitating them having .WELL this is it. NOW I JUST FEEL SO GUILTY DOING IT{MASTURBATING}.I FEEL SEVERELY POLLUTED,CHEAP AND **** ABOUT MYSELF,I JUST BELEIVE THAT NOW THAT I WILL NEVER GET A GOOD INDIAN HUSBAND OR LOVER I KNOW I WILL JUST DIE JUST MASTURBATING,I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF AS MY MORAL,CHARACTER EVERYTHING IS LOST IN THIS MASTURBATION.pleaseeeeeeeeee i beg u to help me.I HAVE DEVASTATED MY CAREER IN WATCHING PORN ON NET,I AM 19YEARS OLD AND JUST PASSED MY CLASS 12TH EXAMS AM NOT EVEN GRADUATE.ITS ALL because of wasting my time in watching BUT I JUST CAN'T CONTROL IT PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE HELP WITH PRACTICALSOLUTION.OTHERWISE I AM BETTER DEAD WITH NO FUTURE